Thursday, September 27, 2012

Birthdays and Tests and oh yeah..... Potential IP's!!!

Yesterday was my 29th birthday - Holy crap how did that happen?  My mom got me a kick-ass new computer chair, Allen got me a heated blanket and a new coffee mug (plus we went and ate some chinese food while mom stayed with the kiddos).

Seriously do they want me to never get up and do housework again?  I'm gonna just be sitting in my new chair with my heated blanket and never get up.  This could be a disaster!

So.. as far as the surrogacy..  I HAVE AN IP PROFILE!!  They seem really great and my profile has been sent to them.. and now we continue to wait :)  It was sent out yesterday about 11, so it would have been 5 pm where they are.  If they decide they like me as well our next step is a meeting via SKYPE!  I know it is a huge decision for them so I am being patient.

Also I took the lovely MMPI test this morning.  Here's hoping I'm not a wackadoodle.  I took it fast because I knew if I started over analyzing the questions I would probably screw up the results, so I just picked the answer that I first thought.  We had some technical difficulties getting set up for the "live" meeting, first my cam and mic were messing up, then the Doctor's were messing up..ugh!
Then my normally well behaved laptop went crazy and was "not responding" to anything!  I ended up having to shut everything out and logging back in and started over - took a good 20 mins, but we made it!

In other news, my baby turns 3 years old tomorrow!!  I just can't believe it.  She was also incredibly well behaved during my test with the Doc this morning!  Toy Story 3 did a good job babysitting, lol.  She loves that movie and hasn't seen it in awhile so I knew it would hold her attention, I just expect it to for the entire hour+.

Sadie is a sweet, silly girl with a wild streak.  I love her to pieces and think everyone should have the chance to know this kind of joy!  Its my plan to help at least one deserving couple out with that :)

                                                           Sadie Grace

This pic is probably a month old but I assure you she looks the same :)  I would take a new pic right now but as usual she is naked!


Monday, September 24, 2012

Here we go!

Well, well, well...  So I want to write a blog.  I have decided to start this blog because of my desire to inform others as well as remember the details of my upcoming surrogacy journey.  Not that that is all I'll be talking about I'm sure.  But that is what has fueled the creation.. and it's certainly what fills my thoughts lately. 

So...  I am in the process of becoming a gestational surrogate!  What that means is I am going to help a couple dealing with infertility by having their baby(s) transferred into my uterus to be carried and delivered.  That is a super simplified version of this process by the way :)

I have been accepted so far by Circle Surrogacy.  They have received all my medical records, I have had psychological screening, as well as Allen, I have a pre-approved Surrogate Maternity Insurance policy and they have decided I'm not unstable and will be a good surro!

I have completed and returned the Commitment Letter and now I wait for the MMPI test to be prepared for me.  Next step is MATCHING!

Can't wait - unfortunately in surrogate land EVERYTHING is hurry up and wait :(

As to why I (a seemingly sane individual) would want to carry a baby for strangers..
1)  I am going to help someone have a family.  I am going to help people who want nothing more than to have a child of their own to love, realize that dream.  It's going to change lives.  Not only will I be helping them have children, I am basically giving them the chance to also have grandchildren someday!  Not only that I will be helping the IP's parents also become grandparents!!  It is a huge honor and responsibility to be trusted with that dream.
2)   I freaking LOVED being pregnant.  I know that seems really weird for alot of people, but I truly mean it.  I know I'm a freak :)  I had a fairly easy time of it, and the thought of never being prego again makes me seriously sad.  Hence how I got into all this in the first place I suppose.  There's just something about growing a human beneath your heart.  Simply amazing.
3)  The money.  We are going in circles trying to pay off our debt.  I desperately want to be a stay at home mom within the next few years, and with the debt hanging over us I don't see it actually happening in the time frame I want it to.  I want to actually be there for my kids during their school years, when I think its most important.  Working full time makes me tired and grumpy, I can't keep up with the housework and finances, now adding to that schoolwork.  The compensation would give us some breathing room and freedom, and allow us to have more time to enjoy our kids when they are young, and as a family.

No,  I haven't entered into this journey on a whim.  This has been festering in the back of my brain since I had Sadie 3 years ago as a serious thing I might someday do, and I first looked into it all after I had Dane 6 years ago. So yeah.. I've given it some thought.

I am very excited to be moving forward with this and can't wait to match and meet my IP's!  Hopefully I will be able to hand them a precious child who can someday do things like this to their home:

Because I'm nice like that :)
Yes, that is a five pound bag of flour.
Gooood Times  :)

So Freakin excited!!!!

Follow along with me if you want, it's about to get interesting!